Beth Moore Aftermath
Based on some of the comments from three months ago, I figured you might be interested to hear how the Beth Moore study of Revelation went. Overall it was a learning experience. I learned a little bit about Revelation, but I learned a lot more about myself. I can honestly say that this will be the first and last Beth Moore study that I ever participate in. She is a very articulate speaker with a distinct style and I can see why she is so popular with so many. The advertising for the study was accurate, Beth Moore spent a large amount of time sampling from various commentators and explaining what they had to say and what she thought for particular passages. The technique worked, but I constantly found myself thinking this, “I could pick up that commentary from off of my shelf and read it for myself. I could even read the entire commentary on this passage instead of the two sentences she quoted.”
I guess that Beth Moore’s bible studies are for people who have trouble studying the Bible and understanding it. In this regard I consider my blog a complete success. I titled it Disciple of Scripture (in Latin) because I earnestly wanted to learn how to study and know the meaning of the Bible. This Revelation study showed me that I have progressed to the point that I truly can access the commentaries on my own abilities and apply what I read to understanding the scripture. I am not saying that I have a fully defensible position on how I would interpret Revelation, I don’t. I’m not sure I ever will. It is just nice to know that the hours I have spent studying and blogging about this stuff have really been blessed and paid off in the end.
I now find myself in an awkward position. Actually it’s not recent, it’s going on over a year now. It is really hard for me to find others who are at the same place theologically and who are interested in studying the Bible in depth. It’s been a bit of a… disillusionment for me. Not sure how to put it. I guess I don’t understand why God would show me all of these things and allow me to learn them, only to founder in an isolated bubble where I can’t interact with others personally about what I read. My wife and I have studied together off and on, but it hasn’t been that consistent. Overall I find myself pursuing things that are more rewarding and less of a downer, and I think this is reflected in my blog content. Feel free to pray for me as I continue to struggle with what to do next as this has been dragging me down for over a year now.
Honestly, I’ve never been more happy or content in my whole life. I have a job that I love and a beautiful family. I even have the time and resources to pursue some hobbies and garden as well. If there is one thing in my life I could change (besides financial independence, woo!) it would be to have peace and partners in the whole area of Bible study. If you have struggled with this in the past and overcome it I would love it if you would be willing to share here in the comments. I guess I should stop this rambling post as it’s already twice as long as I originally planned. I’ll be sure to update with how things go this summer, as I’ll have more free time to study when my school obligations wind down next week.